Love is only a feeling ?

It's hard to find words to describe these feelings when i have loved someone.

It's magical i guess. The feelings one can have for another. For a stranger. For someone who just came into your life out of nowhere.

It's magical i guess these feelings i already have for you.

I just want to see you everyday.

I even see you everywhere. 

I can hear your voices.

I can smell your scent.

It has become something significant.

Felt like i am already a part of you.

And so i wish that one day.

I will be the one you look for when you are sad.

I will be there to comfort you with warm and loving hugs.

I want to be the one you share your joy with.

I will be there to laugh along and kiss your head and say yaayy u made it !

I will be there when you feel lonely. 

I will hold your hands tight to remind you that you still have me.

I want to be there when u r sick.

I would have wished to transfer the sickness to myself.

But then it would be bad to cause you to have a sick partner instead.

Hurm.

I want to be the one who watches the memory of your life as it passes.

I want to be the one to capture all your beautiful smiles and yeah even that silly grumpy moments i would steal that one too.

I want to be the one who understands you like no others. 

And yeah..

I want to be the one you will always come home to.. 

Forgive my obsessive leo lover side.

Truly, I Love You a Lot. =,~} hingus. Okbai.

That song.

"What to do with this love that I'm in, I have given you all of my soul"

I still remember that time when i first listened to this song.

The ambience. 

He introduced me to this song. My Panda.

Back then when we were just started seeing each other.

Back then when i was heartbroken because my ex just left me. 

Back then when Panda was sort of my listener to my sad ending-love story and companion of my loneliness.

And that time I thought that lyrics were really meant for my ex.

Ironically it turns out that they actually meant for the one who introduced me to that. My Panda. 

I guess that's how life would twist you around. 

And yeah.. What to do with this love that I'm in baby ? I have given you all of my soul.. 

=,] 

Lost contact.

So silly and lilly made a deal not to contact each other starting from now until sunday.

The loser will be punished !

Hee~

Lilly is so gonna mish silly.

Go go lilly ! You can do it !

 Mmmuuuaa ! 

So long centa !

Lilly.

She misses him.

Most of the time.

But she knows she gotta hold it.

This has got to be their difficult phase.

They both gotta focus and concentrate on work/studies for a better future!

It's time to be serious and live moderately.

She knows, they will get to see each other from time to time.

She knows they will survive.

She knows everything will be alright.

Hey.

Sometimes u feel like there's so many things to say.

But somehow there's nothing you can really say.

Bad texter.

I am a bad texter.

I can't focus on text when i am doing something.

When i am talking to someone.

When my mind is thinking about work or studies.

When i am outside socialising 

I just can't.

But that doesn't mean i don't wanna talk to you. That doesn't mean i am not thinking of you.

I want to. I think about you most of the time.

But i'd prefer it to be when i can focus only on you.

I feel bad though.

We'll get out quality time together some time.

Love you with all my heart~

=] 

And then...

And then...

He called.

ƪ(ƪ˘▿˘) (˘▿˘ʃ)ʃ yay !! 

Silly.

Now i

Miss your voice

Miss your stare

Miss your smile

Miss your scent

Miss your touch

Miss just sitting next to you.

Diamond.

Hey diamond.

I've fallen so much in love with you.

Have you ever felt this .. 

Mcm.. Every time you say you love someone and you really mean it that your jantung rasa berdenyut2. Idk how to describe that. 

But i can feel that. And that's how i know that my love is real.

And it is real now. 

I just can't imagine losing you. 

Stay ? 

Mummy.

So Silly said his mummy doesn't mind bout us being together. 

ƪ(ƪ˘▿˘) (˘▿˘ʃ)ʃ yay !! 

I is soooooo thankful and happy ! 

Rooftop party !

Last nite we celebrated silly's birthday.

I had this imagination of a nice party set at the rooftop facing the icity.with loud music.make it a mini outdoor club.

Have silver mat, silver balloons, white box with candle light from inside, everyones wearing black, with masks, and red ribbons. 

Lots of food, drinks. 

Dancing around that spacey rooftop.

My friends are awesome. They helped to donate some money for that party. They helped me out from scratch till the end of the party. 

So that night. Everything was ready. 

My set was ready.suddenly... Came the wind. Blew everything away.

And for a moment there i was speechless. There goes my dream of a perfect party. It was disaster. Everything fell out of place. Some were missing. And then.. Came the rain.

Perfect. I had no choice but to just ask silly to come up right away and have everyone to help move things downstair.

So instead of having a rooftop party. We had a parking lot party.

Too bad. But i know. We won't always get what we wanted that easy.

There's always a challenge.

So try to face the challenge by responding wisely. Don't give up.

See. Even though it didn't happen as i imagined, it still happened.

A night i won't forget. 

Happy birthday Silly..

I Love you. A lot. 

Somehow.

Somehow somehow.

I couldn't tell what

And why

And how much

It just keeps coming.

Like a bad dream in a shiny gold ball

Rolling on the floor

Closer 

But far

Away

Could i smash it ?

Crack into sharp unwanted pieces.

But i just let it roll

Away

Away

Away

Then i realised

I've got a priceless diamond

In my hands.

Sweetiehunnypie.

My birthday has just passed. 

We had a party at a place where Silly hates. Not really hate. But he doesn't like being in such place. But that night he came along for me.

I fetched him that night; and when he got inside the car, he handed over a birthday gift nicely wrapped in blue paper with yellow ribbon. He said "i was planning to give you this on 19th (my birthday is on 19th but the party was on 17)but I want to be the first one to give this to you"

=] inside, was my fav perfume !! ƪ(ƪ˘▿˘) (˘▿˘ʃ)ʃ yay !! 

Just now,after i met him in cheras and about to go home. He told me to look at the top of my car once I reach home.

So I did.

And I found this

"Daniel ❤ Adya"

Gift.

Hey..

I don't know how to describe my feelings.

God sent me someone too nice that makes me wonder.. do I deserve this ?

Do I ?

May I keep this Gift forever ?

Please..

Proud.

Hey I am very proud of you.

Even though you are a non-Muslim,

Tapi sepertinya iman loe lagi kuat dr kami ya?

Hewhew.

I am ashamed of myself.

You managed to sahur,puasa,tahan godaan,and even you pon feel bad to be in "such place" during Ramadhan.

You are not an alcoholic. You don't even smoke. Not a clubber. 

How can I not fall for that ? 

Dear God..

Thanks for sending such a nice guy.

A guardian.

A guidance.

A good influence.

Dear God,

Forgive my sins.

Help me to be a wise lady.

Help me to stay positive.

Help me to live through this live that i've fucked up myself.

Help my friends and family to always be happy and contented. 

Help us to get closer to you.

Somehow..

We are lost.

In our own stupid decisions. 

Dear God,

Send someone nice to guide them.

And help them keep calm and stay strong.

Send someone reliable and positive to make them happy and drag them away from what's forbidden.

And sorry that I am not good enough to be that someone. 

Admirer.

Isn't it nice to have someone.

Sitting next to you.

Talking to you dgn pnoh interest.

Admiring every expression you made.

Lightly hold your hand.

And rub the back of your hand.

And take it then walk you around.

Sharing little silly things about everything you passed by.

And just look into your eyes.

And smile.

Mesmerised. 

And there goes most of the times.

Most girls say...

" i wish he was here. " 

It's happening.

Fak it.

It's happening again.

I'm falling deeper and deeper.

I think of you every night and day,

In every lyrics.

I see you in my dreams.

I see you in everything.

Now i can't sleep.

"It could be wrong.

But it shouldn't be right.

It could be wrong.

To let our hearts ignite.

It could be wrong.

Are we digging a hole ?

It could be wrong.

This is out of control.

It could be wrong.

It could never last.

It could be wrong.

Must erase it fast.

It could be wrong.

But it shouldn't be right.

Love is our resistance."

Panda.

Hey panda.

I am happy with you.

I feel safe.

Like my friends said,

You are the best.

Whatever happen in the future,

I will always remember

How you came into my life 

And fixed me.

Thanks a lot. 

=]

#Silly.

My Silly.

You are like the nicest guy I've ever be with.

Since the day 1 we met.

Although it was a bit confusing somehow. =p

You are special I must admit.

I fall for your kindness every time.

I like who I am when I am with you.

Sometimes you make me feel like I am a mother to a naughty manja son.

That I just wanna sit and listen to you telling stories excitedly.

I just wanna hug you tight and lightly rub your back and say "don't worry everything's gonna be fine" whenever you are not okay.

Sometimes you make me feel like I am a stubborn daughter arguing with her father. Lol. 

Those bebelan. Arrr.... *tutup telinga* lalalalala

Sometimes you make me feel like I am your partner in crime.

Having fun in Lalaland.

That's awesome.

Can't get enough.

Sometimes you make me feel like I am a lucky fan.

Watching my rockstar on the stage.

But then that rockstar is going back with ME. =p

Sometimes you make me feel very much in love.

By the way you care.

By the way you stare.

By the way you kiss me on the forehead.

By the way you hug me.

Sometimes... You make me feel sleepy !

Haha. Nahh.. Actually I am sleepy now.

Goodnight Silly.