happy and sad

sometimes i just get happy and sad simultaneously.
because what once made me happiest turned out to be what brought me down.

now what is next ?

but someone said happiness is temporary.
why must happiness be temporary?
actually it is not happiness that is temporary.
but everything is.

sadness, anger, intelligence, beauty , popularity.
everything in this world is temporary.

but I want to keep what i love as long as i still.exist.

i want to live this life happily.
i want to leave happily.

i love keeping what i love.
but do they love to keep me ?

i hate sad love stories.
i mean real love stories.
why do people make other people fall for them
and then take them for granted
and leave them in the end
with excuses. or perhaps without.

why people always find excuses.
i believe if you really want something or someone,
you don't find excuses.
you fight against those excuses.

i had always fight for what i wanted.
cause i believe enough in my choices.
i believe enough in my abilities.
i am ready enough to face the consequences.

you see you only have one life to live.
why give up on things you really want just because of what people would say.
everyone is going to die anyway eventually.
well the point is, why bother much?

however once you have made your decision, you have to stand by your words and make it work.
must have some pride in yourself.
it is okay to have people look down on what you are fighting for but not okay to have people look down on you for giving up on what you had once stood up for.

and yeah.
i will not give up.
i will not make a fool of myself.
no matter how bad people would bring me down
i know i will always get up
and have a good life.

a good life with whom i choose to be with, in places i choose to live in, doing what i choose to do.
and i am not scared of anyone. any word.