hum dil de chuke sanam.

have you watched that movie?

it's about this woman who was so in love with this guy.but the guy has to leave.


and the woman get married to another guy.
but she kept on defending her love for the former guy.

and so her husband helped her to get back her former lover.


after seraching merata2,they found him !
and the husband was ready to let her go



and then she realized.she doesn't want to go back to her past.

she realized that she loves her husband.

and so she let go of her lover and got back together with her husband.


back then i thought it was bullshit.
like.why? why did she gave up on her first love ? the one she had fallen so hard ?


now i understand

falling in love is some kind of childish silly things we felt and it can't be real. but it sure feels so good.you know.the attractions.getting nervous and all that.

but loving someone is another thing.
you see.you never fall for your family.but you love them to death ! why ?

because they care for you.because they are always there for you.

and that's it.

i love silly yes.
because he's the one who was always there for me since i broke up.

he listened to my bullshit things bout falling so much in love with my ex.

he was the one who cheered me up when i was sad.

he has done so much for me.
and i am thankful for that
even though i've known from the start that this is not gonna last long.

and when he's gone
i promise to get back up on my feet again
and be happy.