JUST A PIECE OF CRAPS

bad night .

2012-03-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

tonight we ended our call with a fight .

ridiculous fight .

you started to joke around last night saying

'kamu ni bukan nya menyenangkan tp menyusahkan '

ya i know u were joking but what annoyed me is you didn't put a stop to it .

i was expecting u saying something nice afterwards..

but u didn't

n tonight you joke around about that again..

and added up about how good it is if you could get other woman..

and how i am menyusahkan..

then i kinda get pissed off

and then you get angry because you said

saya tak boleh dibawa bergurau

and you were arrogant as always

i guess same goes to me .

but i don't want to end my night with a sad face

so i called you again to apologize and to explain

and so as usual i asked for a good night kiss

which you refused

you said ' buat apa nak kiss org tak boleh dibawa bergurau '

and then i said 'kiss lah then boleh bergurau '

then u said 'sapa nak bergurau dgn kamu tu'

now that hurts

my attempt to sleep with happy face got worse now

how could you .

please stop being arrogant and care bout my feelings .

i am not a fish <--according to nivana's song "it's okay to eat fish cause they don't have any feeling"

the tale of the bapak tiri .

2012-03-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

tank .

dgn dia... aku rs tak bebas .

dgn dia... aku kna jadi dewasa .

dgn dia... aku jadi patuh .

mula2 aku rimas .

aku pelik .

aku marah .

tp marah2 aku...aku ikot jgak katanya .

aku fikir...

klao aku dgr ckp dia...

satu hari nanti klao dia buat salah..

dia tak boleh tuding jari pada kesalahan aku lagi .

tp sebenarnya tank btol .

walaupun kadang2 melampau ,

tp dia jaga aku dgn baik .

walaupun dari awalnya social background nya truk .

tp dia tak pnah biarkan aku jadi truk .

dia tak bagi aku keluar malam .

pkul 10 mesti ada dkat rumah .

katanya..perempuan keluar malam2 mcm pelacur .

mmg bagi aku ridiculuous !

sbb aku dah biasa hidup waktu malam .

tp sbenarnya btol .

tak manis perempuan keluar mlm2 .

-tp sbenarnya aku rinduuu sgt lepak dgn kawan2 aku mlm2 .

dia tak bagi aku merokok .

bukan sebatang .

sesedut pun dia takkan bagi .

kata dia .

'nak berdarah hidung ?'

dia tak bagi aku video chatting dgn org laen.

padahal dulu aku mmg gila vid chatting.

dgn sapa2 ja.

skang br aku terfikir.

truk btol prangai pompuan duk bervid chat dgn laki2. strangers.

dia tak bagi aku pkai sexy2 .

kata dia

'suka sgt lah tayang body kat laki2 ?'

seluar pendek tak boleh

baju jarang tak boleh

legging tak boleh

sleeveless tak boleh

dia tak bagi aku masuk club.

minum.etc.

wlaupun dia dikelilingi org begitu.

klao berjalan especially di tepi jln raya..

dia jaga aku

bila makan..

dia slalu suapkan aku

wlaupun aku malu. dipaksa jgak.<--c pelik.

bila duduk beramai2 di seat belakang kereta

dia akn pastikan aku di hujung

jadi aku duduk di sebelahnya

dia masih menjaga aku.

wpun kadang2 dia sampai sakit kepala

sebab aku pun keras kepala

kadang2 dia kata dia give up

tp semua org buat silap .

tak rugi aku dgr ckp dia .

dia buat aku rasa berharga .

so thanks a lot bersusah2 berpening2 menjaga saya .

i will try my best to be the best .

forgotten friday .

2012-03-03T00:49:00.001+08:00

merujuk kepada diary.

just realized hari jumaat je kosong .

kenapa ?

cause diary aku ni aku tulis setiap hari kat ofis .

sabtu ahad aku cuti .

jumaat plak belum berakhir..so aku tak tulis lah on friday .

kne tunggu hari isnin...

bila dah hari isnin...

aku cuba recall what happened on sunday...saturday...

and often when it comes to friday...

aku dah LUPA .

february .

2012-03-02T10:56:00.001+08:00

fear .

2012-03-01T22:00:00.001+08:00

tao apa yg aku takot skarang ni ?

aku takot kao hilang .

bukan hilang tinggalkan aku

tp hilang dr dunia .

semoga kamu sentiasa dlm keadaan baik2

dan dijauhkan dari kecelakaan .

aamiiin.....

last episode of doraemon !

2012-02-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

http://doraemon-lastepisode1.blogspot.com/

and the meaning of the song... :

Doraemon Themesong

This sort of thing is good

I wish I could do it

That sort of dream, this sort of dream,

I have many of them but

All of them, all of them, all of them

He grants my dreams

He grants my dreams with a mysterious pocket

I want to fly freely in the sky(Here! Bamboo-copter!)

Ah ah ah

I love you very much,

Doraemon...

denda vs hukuman .

2012-02-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

i heard that in kelantan you have to tutup aurat .

or else you kena denda .

i read somewhere this woman kne denda cause pakai bj lengan pendek .

i dont know sejauh mana kebenarannya cause when i asked people around me..

" btol ke kat kelantan kne denda klao tak tutup aurat ? "

then they would say..

" eh btol ke ? "

aii..aku tanya dia..dia tanya balik...

well back to the topic.

at first i was like .

gila ke ? mcm susah je ? abes org luar pegi sana camna ?

but then aku fikir balik .

ni baru denda .

what if lah kan..

Allah S.W.T hukum kita setiap hari macam tu. mungkin setiap petang lah.

setiap dosa aku buat hari ni...

pkul 5 jap lagi aku trima la hukumannya .

pergh. hari2 aku kne bakar agaknya .

mungkin tak berani keluar rumah dah .

anna sui .

2012-02-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

i bought this purple anna sui at hush puppies .

and to me, it's not worth buying !

because

the tapak is soooo licin !!

dem.

better buy a DM instead !

Rihanna - We Found Love ft. Calvin Harris

2012-02-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

the best bf .

2012-02-20T02:35:00.002+08:00

well i have to admit .

you are in fact

the best so far .

how did you do that ?

teardrops .

2012-02-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

aku mmg sng menangis .

dlm seminggu ntah brapa kali je aku tak menangis .

aku tak menangis klao brg aku hilang .

atao apa2 yg sewaktu dgnnya .

tp aku menangis berkaitan dgn org yg aku syg .

yg penting bagi aku .

org yg tak penting dlm hidup aku, kao nak ckp aku apa2 pon cakaplah .

takde efek pon kat aku .

paling aku sensitif berkaitan dgn ayh aku .

aku tak rapat dgn dia . tak manja . tak langsung .

sbb aku degil . aku slalu memberontak dari kecil .

sbb semua benda pon dia tak kasi aku buat .

semua alasan dia aku tak puas .

sampai kan di tahap aku dan dia tak bertegur sapa .

pernah sampai dia cuma tegur adik2 aku saja .

cnthnya 'tyka,dyra, dah sembahyang ?'

tapi dia tak tanya aku. padahal aku ada ja di depan mata .

sampai aku jadi awkward bila ditinggal berdua dgnnya.

tak tahu apa nak dicakap.

bila aku masuk uitm, selepas bertahun2 berjauhan,

aku nampak dia mula cuba bercakap dgn aku.

aku jugak.walaupun kekok.

skarang pon kdg2 aku masih rs kekok.

sbb aku ego. tp aku mmg syg sgt dia.

aku tahu dia pon begitu.

pnah dulu,masa aku kat uitm tiba2 dia msg, call n akhirkan dgn ckp 'i love u'

tersentuh . sangat .

satu hari..aku tak igt di tahun berapa..

mak aku call.cakap dia tak dpt contact ayh.

ayh keluar.dia takot ayh pengsan coz ayh tgh saket.

masa tu jugak,aku tak sedar dah siapa sebelah aku,

trus aku menangis. aku risau sgt.

risau perkara bukan2 jadi kat ayah.

aku call dia byk kali.

serius aku takot .

tiba2 dia angkat.

masa dia angkat tu..

aku tanya 'ayh kat mana..'

then trus aku menangis.

tak dpt kaver dah.

then dia ckp 'knapa menangis..ayh ok...tak apa2..'

then i continue menangis..then aku tak igt apa2 dah

and masa tu mak cerita ayh tb2 saket truk. tp aku kat shah alam.

aku tatao.

ada ustat ckp ayh mungkin dah takde harapan .

tp alhamdulillah..ayh sihat .

dan masih ada di sini sekarang .
baru2 ni jugak dia sakit..masuk hospital..
aku dan adik aku bernazar.
berpuasa seminggu kalau dia sembuh.

dia sembuh.
alhamdulillah..

tp suatu hari nanti..

dia pasti akn pergi jugak..

aku harap aku dpt hadapi semua tu dgn baik..

ayah. i love you so much.

sorry for being such a bad daughter.

thanks a lot for raising me up..

dgn susah payah..

for loving me this much.

semoga syurga lah tempat mu kelak .

aamiiinn....

words .

2012-02-18T22:26:00.005+08:00

think before you speak .

your words might change someone's life to a better, or worse .

wth !

2012-02-18T22:03:00.004+08:00

im so f pissed off !

what a coward !

avoid temptations !

2012-02-17T14:16:00.002+08:00

you love me .

2012-02-17T02:06:00.001+08:00

i believe now that you love me .

although you dont really tell me straight away .

cause even after several attempts of breaking up..

after several chances ive given you to let me go...

after lots of ridiculous fights..

you are still here !

and now i should learn to trust and stop being paranoid of being cheated on, or not being loved .

silly.

how could i not see that there's no point for him to stay with me if it's not love .

we are far from each other.

i am not hot.

i am not rich.

i am no fun.

nah...nothing .

means there's no benefit for him anyway.

so be thankful that he stays.

terkejut !

2012-02-17T00:28:00.003+08:00

http://comic.naver.com/webtoon/detail.nhn?titleId=350217&no=31&weekday=tue

try this. terkejut aku.
better dont read alone.

dont forget to turn on the speaker.

sorry .

2012-02-16T23:50:00.001+08:00

i feel guilty for falling asleep so early today .

that i didnt even notice you were having such a bad day .

until i tgk fb kamu just now .

so u were injured ! both thumbs ! kesiannya sygku ini...

n you dpt wrong shirts ! dr online seller . you must be really pissed off !

patot lah td call you sound like you are not ok .

but i just diamkan diri cause you said you were sleeping too.

so i thought i dont want to kcao u with stories and all, and just let you fall asleep.

y didnt you just tell me c syg..

haish. now i feel so guilty.

wishing you a better day tomorrow sayang.

smoga tgn kamu baik jugak.

LOVE YOU A LOT lah manja.

ego box .

2012-02-12T10:29:00.000+08:00

here is the story of such an ego dude .
i guess this was because he was used to being bossy with people around him .

don't push him to do something.
he won't !

yesterday... i lost my patience.
cause i've been longing to hear those sweet words. those simple 'i love you' thingy.
not that i doubted him or what
i just need to hear them
*i am the kind of person who loves the state of being in love.

most of the time..when i asked him to say it..he said
'tade2..skang da tade sweet2 da..'
wth.

akhirnya i get pissed off.
the next morning
i texted him again..
asking whyyyyyy is it so hard for him to say it?
just say it

then dia ckp aku plak yg gila ?
it was simple.if i ask u to say it.just say it.
now both are all stressed out.

finally he said 'klao km paksa saya..sy ckp tak langsung !'
so...i was broken. i said,theres no point of staying with someone who doesnt love you anymore.
so i will go away !

n he said something like 'km yg lepaskan saya.jgn na slhkn sy plak'
then i said lah...something like i dont mind klao a guy ta boleh bagi aku apa2.tp i surely cant live with a guy who doesnt love me.
true. right ?

then he said.jgn laa pressure sy....sy kat kerja ni.
then i said sorry.i said just find me if he thinks he could say it.if he doesnt,then aku akn fhm sendiri lah.n takkan kcao dia jgak.

few minutes later..i got a message.
'iloveu3'

haha.FINALLY ! bukannya susah pon ! ego sgt !

blessing .

2012-02-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

so my mom likes you...
my dad already calls you menantu....

i really hope we don't spoil it .
love till the end .

a year .

2012-02-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

so finally i told him

i'll wait for another year for things to change

by that time,

if he still not giving up his little secret..

enough.

i wont wait anymore .

if a guy loves a woman..

2012-02-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

he would share every part of his life with her because she is the most important part of his life .

am i wrong ?
and i am living in denial just because you are the important part of mine.

but you are not willing to share everything.
instead you said im crazy for asking such things.

how cheap am i compared to ur fb life ?

no i am not cheap .
you just don't know how to appreciate .

and you said as if the two years mean nothing.
weird.
cause it is so meaningful to me.

it is something i am proud of.
cause we made it .
tell me do you feel anything about that ?
not at all ?

tell me do you love me enough to let me share those part of your life ?
or do you love those part enough to let me go ..

portfolio .

2012-02-07T22:33:00.005+08:00

well i upload this for a friend of mine .
hope this helps . they are not good . kerja nak cepat . huhu. nanti u susun2 kasi gempak portfolio u ok !

if you could understand .

2012-02-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

the fear .
the waiting .
the faith .

it's been two years.
his status is still single.
i'm still hidden.
i still don't get the password.
and that buat aku rs cam pompuan simpanan.
i got the layanan and all. but i don't have the rights.

and so i asked him why don't u just put the 'in a relationship' status.
people won't know that i am ur gf anyway.

and he said its not penting.
and after half an hour talking...crying...
the answer is still no.
he won't change it.
if he ever does, he would delete his fb.

that's how degil he is.
always want things to go his way.

but he said he is serious with me..
and would marry me...
let's just wait and see and pray for the best.

as for now i just could take and live with whats offered.
cant demand much.

and here goes the waiting. again.
and the faith that eventually my patience will get paid.

i just want a happy love story.
badly .

make up.

2012-02-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

So on 2^nd feb tyka told me he chatted with him and he asked tyka to tell me

‘ckp kat dia aku rindu dia’

And I was like. What? Rindu tp tak msg,tak call..and I was like.no.im not gonna call him first.cause I’ve texted him several times before but no reply.

And so I waited..waited.. silence.

And on 3^rd feb…at night..i was at the hospital waiting for my dad’s check up. My mom, tyka, and I sat at the waiting area and I began whining about tank’s not calling for SIX days.

And finally I said ‘suh lah dia call.tak tahan ni.’ And they said. ‘call je la.dia nak ke call klao org lain yg suruh.dia suh kak long call pon kak long tak call’

‘mana ada dia suh kak long call’

‘ada lah dia ckp suh kak long call.dia rindu’

‘mana ada.awk tak ckp pon.awk Cuma kasitao dia rindu je’

‘ye lah.dia ada ckp suh call’

And I texted hani asking for her opinion..whether I should call or not.

And she said.just call.you’ll be happy.

Ah.at last.aku jugak kalah.kat hospital tu jgak aku call dia.tanya.napa tak call ! end we ended up laughing at each other.

EGO.EGO.

Dude.please let me win next time.arr.hate you.

january .

2012-02-03T10:43:00.001+08:00

touch me im sick .

2012-02-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

this is too much .

now im just scared to sleep cause every time i close my eyes i see you.
demmit.

and you are not here.
not here
still not here

my phone is silent.

this is way too much.
im sick.
im really sick.

i just need to hear that F voice again and fall asleep listening to that S.

silent is easy ?

2012-02-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

so there goes another day without you
i can see NO effort of reaching me at all
not on fb chat..not on the phone

and waiting is pointless now

cause people say...
if a guy is really into you
he would definitely come back to you

well if you keep on giving me silent treatment i will just assume you are over it.

too bad.
it's only four days before your birthday
and 8 days before our second anniversary

well i hope you enjoy my little surprise when it reaches your doorstep by 4th feb.
so long.

running in circle .

2012-01-31T22:46:00.003+08:00

the moment when you saw him there..
but you just run away
cause you are too broken to wait
and too afraid to speak .

perfect stranger .

2012-01-31T16:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just need a perfect stranger *a female* to talk to.

well adya..that is why you end up blogging your craps .

so he was angry at me ...
i said sorry..
now he's not texting..not calling...
nothing..

though i texted him lots of times already

i remember him saying 'klao org tu nak buat, pasti dibuat jgak..ta perlu disuruh2'
so...i should not ask you to contact me lah right.
if you really want to, you would

well i just hope you miss me the way i do.

at least. think of me.

little wish .

2012-01-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

i just want to be loved all the time .
all the time .

Coldplay - The Scientist

2012-01-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

trust me when i say i really love you..

im sorry..

being a gf .

2012-01-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

klao kamu rasa saya gf yg truk..kamu silap.
saya berani cakap. kamu silap.

i am the one who always care about you.
in whatever situation. whatever mood im in.

please take all those anger away.

day 3 .

2012-01-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

wearing hijab is not that easy actually for someone like me yg dah membiasakan diri adoring all those western culture .

but i will fight all those temptations away .
please give me the strength .

adya.
remember.
a woman's beauty is to be kept carefully..
just like the expensive rare item which one would keep carefully in a box..
not to be touched.

and it is a gift for a husband .
make your future husband proud for being the only one
who can see the beauty underneath your clothes .

please adya please !

hijab .

2012-01-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

it's my second day of wearing hijab..
still feel awkward.
asek2 tgk cermin...
wuuwuu

i hope my bf can accept my changes whole heartedly *btol ka ayat aku ni.lupa plak
hopefully dia tak pi menggatal kat awek2 sexy..
and if he do that jgak..perhaps kitrg tade jodoh lah tu..
terpaksa nyanyi lagu selamat jalan romeo plak.

changes .

2012-01-25T21:08:00.001+08:00

i just want to be a better Muslim..
and die peacefully....
aamiinn...

darkened wish .

2012-01-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

just drop the word like you used to ,
without asking much you said i'm a fool ;
you brought in the light to enlighten ,
but you got me choosing what is darkened ?

and so you spend another night with me..
thinking the shine could only worsen the fee..
to pay the part of me that has burdened ,
but the worst part would be what you have already taken .

is it wrong to be the chosen ?
is it fun to see me broken ?

so just drop the word i'd like to hear ,
before every sight of us completely disappear ;
then i will try a little harder not to miss..
the little light on my darkened wish .

Dumb- Nirvana lyrics

2012-01-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

admit it .

2012-01-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

why don't you just say it .

say you love me
say you miss me

like you used to .

why do you have to leave me wondering WHY .

the list # 6 .

2012-01-21T21:38:00.001+08:00

the 7 days break up .

do you remember that ?
it was a HORRIBLE week .

all i did was crying over and over again, skipping classes.

the reason : pass fb and meleret ke benda2 laen.

i was in part 09, living with maksu, in puchong.
pagi2 aku drive ke shah alam, pasang mp3, lagu run-snow patrol.
dah sedih, lagi tambah melayan perasaan dgn lagu sedih.
sepanjang perjalanan ke shah alam aku menangis.
aku tahan diri dari text kao seperti pagi2 biasa.
tapi aku text jugak..'morning,take care' -buang perkataan sayang.

sampai shah alam, aku masih tak berhenti menangis.
jadi aku ponteng kelas.aku ke mcD.
kononnya nak buat design kat sana.
tapi hampeh. kertas ditenung saja. dgn mata berair.

kao ajak jumpa.
katanya, untuk kali terakhir.
so i picked u up and we went to bb. our usual place.
i acted cool. was not cying at all. i smiled.

then kao ajak berjalan ke KLCC. cause kita tak pernah lepak sana.
kita pergi makan. burger king mungkin? atao carl's jr?
mau saja aku menangis. sedih. bila fikirkan ini hari terakhir.
luckily, i didn't.

we went to watch street dance.
the movie was not as good as step up.
sepanjang tgk movie tu,
kao pegang tangan aku. lebih erat dari biasa.
tak dilepaskan. as if you were saying 'i don't want to let you go'
aku sedih lagi.

habis movie, kita berjalan ke bb.
dalam perjalanan, kao menari2, tiru gaya movie.
so adorable. aku tersenyum. aku gelak. walaupun sebenarnya aku sedih.
kemudian kao nyanyi2 lagu beggin' . lagu dari movie tu jugak.
kao kata 'kamu suka lagu ni kan ?'
i guess u asked cause you heard the song from my playlist.
never thought you would remember such thing anyway.

and then you asked 'beggin' tu maksudnya apa?
aku kata 'merayu'
then kao kata 'im beggin' you to take care always..'
terharu. kao buat aku makin sedih lagi. tapi aku tetap senyum.

kau jugak ada kata, kao mahu kita berkawan, sampai lah aku jumpa org lain.
aku senyum saja.

aku hantar kao pulang ke klang.
sebelum turun, kao pegang tangan aku, dan kao cium dahi aku.
sebak. mmg aku sedih sangat tank. aku tunduk.
kao keluar saja dari kereta, aku senyum, lambai tangan, dan terus bergerak pergi.
aku terus pergi kerana aku sudah tak dpt tahan dari menangis.

sampai di rumah, kao text aku.
kao cakap, kao jugak sedih, tapi kao cakap aku cool saja.
luaran tank. luaran.

since then, setiap malam kita pasti calling. lebih lama dari biasa.
berjam2. kao cakap kao sayang aku. tapi kao kalah. kao tak rasa kita boleh diteruskan.
typical aku. masa tu aku masih ego. aku tak merayu utk bersama kembali.
aku takkan sebut dulu.

begitulah setiap hari, malam aku happy, siang aku sendiri.

ada satu hari aku menggila mau ke kl sendiri. tapi nawwar datang. teman aku pergi.
*thanks a lot nawar.
tp aku silap. silap pilihan tempat.
kemana aku gerak di kl tu, disitulah aku nampak kamu.
I JUST CANT GET OVER YOU.

and there was the day, i saw you uploaded new photos. you seem so happy and it killed me.
so aku delete kao dari fb.
kao text aku. marah. kao ckp sampai hati aku delete kau dr fb.
kao kata, kao tahulah skarang aku mmg sudah benci kao, aku mau buang kao.
kao cakap, kao jugak benci aku, dan itu last msg dari kao.

kao jgak ego. walaupun aku terangkan sebab kenapa aku delete kao, kao tetap takkan balas msg aku.
cause kao dah terlepas ckp 'msg terakhir'
but thanks to deela.
deela jadi org perantara.
kao chat dgn deela. kao pesan, suruh aku tgk video yg kao post di fb.
katanya,lagu itu utk aku. -lagu tell me where it hurts-garbage
aku check liriknya. sedih. kao masih igt aku lagi bukan ?
jadi aku pesan kat deela. suh kao tgk blog aku. aku post smua yg aku rasa sepanjang break up.
kao cakap sedih.

tapi aku rimas pakai org tengah. last2 aku fb chat kao.
kita berbaik semula.
kao ckp lagu tu, maksudnya, kasitao saja klao ada sapa2 sakitkan hati aku. biar kau pukul. lol.
tapi aku ckap kau lah yg sakitkan hati aku.

finally..sampai malam ketujuh...
kao ckp..kao mau teruskan..tp aku harus tetap disembunyikan...
dan aku setuju...
sampai sekarang..aku masih begitu..

tersembunyi.

=]

published .

2012-01-20T13:52:00.001+08:00

tiap kali aku tgk lelaki2 di fb buat in a relationship with his gf ,
letak gamba his gf ,
comment2 his gf ,

aku pasti terasa .

terasa .
kenapa lelaki2 itu boleh ?
tetapi kekasihku tidak ?

memang dia ada alasannya.
katanya, tak mao memburukkan lagi keadaan .
supaya boleh kekal .

tapi sebenarnya aku tetap terasa .

sampai bila
aku harus disembunyikan ?

*see my heart's a broken pieces . you better mend it fast . before it's too late .

rational .

2012-01-19T20:28:00.000+08:00

now that i can think rationally .
i would like to apologize to mr tank *as if he read this, im sure he doesn't.
for being such an idiot .

i realized he actually didn't leave me for too long ( bagi pandangan dia lah )
cause he reached home setelah pulang dari kerja dlm pkul 10,
so..dlm masa tu...dia mandi....makan....men game...internet...
pkul 12 he called me .

he delayed 2 hours ja .

aku ja yg rasa ditinggalkan lama2 cause aku duk merayap ja kat melaka tu seharian .

wth.

needing 2 .

2012-01-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

ya.. it's true he might be really tired .
and the fact that he call can be perfect excuse not to be mad .

but i was on the way back from melaka.
i was expecting at least a text asking wether i dah bertolak ke belum ke.
wether everything's ok.

i waited.
it was only until 12am
you called after you finished playing games.
as usual.

but this was not our 'usual' day.
i was all the way back from MELAKA see.

then because i was in the car with my family,
we ended the call,
and then you didn't even bother to text me.

nice.

now tell me if i ever crossed you mind ?

*i waited for a day, and i got only few minutes, but that stupid internet got few hours.wth.

needing .

2012-01-18T02:35:00.002+08:00

i used to feel wanted . and needed . by YOU .
i just can't feel it anymore .

i'm far behind that stupid pool . stupid games . stupid addiction .
perhaps i'm far behind my sanity .

shouldn't i feel grateful that you still manage to drop me a call everyday ?
should i recall the part when you said
' work is so tiring but i call you every night so that your negative thoughts could stop '
every other time i feel like you don't remember me ?

but some part of my brain think
if those stupid things can get hours of your limited time
i want more .

cheating .

2012-01-18T02:09:00.001+08:00

if you caught my boyfriend cheating please tell me .

don't give up .

2012-01-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

semua org ada kesah centanya sendiri .
semua kesah ada masalahnya sendiri .

*benda baik takkan dtg dgn mudah.

aku pernah dengar masalah yg lagi besar dari msalah aku.
jadi kenapa aku harus bimbang ?
kenapa aku harus mengalah ?

aku tak janji aku takkan mengalah .
tapi aku masih belum mengalah .

aku tak takot.
selagi kao masih sayang aku,
aku akan hadapi semuanya.
aku akan trima semuanya.

susah.
senang.
pujian.
makian.

aku harap kao takkan kalah lagi kali ni.
macam dulu.

tapi kalao sampai satu saat kao mengalah.
dan pergi.
saat itu aku tahu.
centa kao blom kuat utk aku.

DECORATE BY YUNA with LYRICS

2012-01-15T13:49:00.001+08:00

it's a short song but i could feel the hope and the frustration there.

nice job yuna. =]

Butterfingers - Wet Blanket (HQ Audio)

2012-01-15T13:29:00.001+08:00

o

he's my wet blanket .

Silly Me (Original) by Pika Eugene

2012-01-15T12:54:00.000+08:00

found this girl on youtube while i was browsing through 'buat aku tersenyum' videos.
gosh,she is sooo cute and talented !
i am in love .

the list # 5.

2012-01-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

bakso.
i remember we went to eat bakso somewhere in klang.
dgn chois,ayet,and two girls.

and you treated me like a child.
as if i am your daughter.

you ambik my bakso,
and tolong isi2 kan benda2 laen..
i dont remember..maybe stuff like cili2..kicap..kot.

and kamu kacao2 kan smua tu...
and tlg rasakan..
then you passed it to me smula and tanya 'ok ?'

uiii.tergamam ku di situ.
*ya la.tak pernah plak aku dimanjakan begitu kn.

finally .

2012-01-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

finally he called me .
haish.

tp itulah kamu.
never want to say either you miss me or love me.

you just said
call sebab KESIAN

wth.

nah...i don't think so..
you miss me too don't you ?

=p

buat kau tersenyum .

2012-01-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

so..from now on...every time you are angry at me..
i will pretend you sing this song to me..
so that i will not leave you
no matter how angry i am too...

unless you want me to go away..
then i will leave you...

p/s: i really miss you. don't ignore me for too long..

silent .

2012-01-12T00:22:00.001+08:00

there's no single call or text for me today .
nothing .

ty.

Kasabian - Goodbye Kiss

2012-01-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

Dirty Vegas - Days Go By

2012-01-11T12:11:00.001+08:00

ambil berat 2.

2012-01-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

okay..i wrote that in anger.

haish.
i really hope you would understand..why i have to be there .
please do...amiiinnn..
and please don't take this as an opportunity for you to do something i hate.
because it's different.

pelase do understand it's not wrong at all.
aamiiiinnnnn..

ya Allah...tlg lah fhm kan c Tank ini...
that i'm innocent...that i'm doing the right thing.
amiinn
*anyone reading can you pray for me too ?

please.

i love you bengongs .
too much.too much.

ambil berat ?

2012-01-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

aku frust.
saket hati jugak.

anak sulung bos aku nak kawen dlm sminggu lagi.
so this friday bos buat majlis tahlil solat smua.
and then bos bagi ktrg half day jumaat ni.
coz nak tlg2 preparation.

so akak2 ofis da plan,
pas ofis,pi ruma bos, tolong2
then balik ruma time mghrb, and dtg balik bawak family utk kenduri pas magrb.

and 'mr bf' ckp kat aku. ta paya pegi.
WTH.
WTH

bila aku tanak dengar,
aku ckp kat dia tak logik,
dia ckp
'bila org nak ambil berat,ckp tak logik.tak ambil berat,nt mara plak'

ambil berat ka tu ?
aku rasa tu lebih kepada takot? atao jealousy ?

klao kao ambik berat, kao patot fikir plak kesannya klao aku tak pegi tolong.

staf dah lah sepuluh org je
klao aku tak pegi.
mmg trg2 ah nampak aku tak pegi
persoalannya.
KNAPA AKU TAK PEGI ?
sdgkan org laen yg da ada anak bini suami pon boleh pegi tlg??
pasti satu ofis akn bercakap2.
pergh.malu aku nak tunjuk muka kat ofis klao aku tak pegi.

bila aku ckp mcm tu kat dia.
dia boleh ckp
'mmg lah org da ada ank tak keysah pegi.coz org da kawen tade sapa nak kcao.yg single ni lah org kcao'

wth.

aku nak pegi tlg KENDURI TAHLIL,SOLAT SMUA.KENDURI ORG MELAYU.ISLAM

bukannya ada pergaulan bebas. bukannya pi tlg preparation party liar pon.

tlg lah. FAHAM.

aku kena lah jaga reputasi and nama aku jgak.
laen lah klao kao suami aku.boleh jugak aku ckp suami tak izin pergi.
takkan aku nak asek kasi alasan bf tak bagi pergi.

kao tanak kasi aku ikot pi trip ka apa ka.
tak keysah lah.
tp, benda ni bagi aku klao aku ta pi tlg langsung.
pergh.MALU.mcm tak bley diharap langsung.
harap je pompuan.

BILALAH KAO NAK START FAHAAMMM PLAKKKK.
asek akuuu je kne fahaaammm

The Fratellis - Whistle For The Choir (Lyrics)

2012-01-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

Limp Bizkit - Eat You Alive

2012-01-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

politikus .

2012-01-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

politikss....politikss...
bukak fb jaa....politiiiksss...

im tired of all those things but somehow they attracted me to continue reading.
how devilish .

call me stupid ignorant.
i dont mind
dah lali dgr kutukan kepada ignorant .
nama pon ignorant
so ignoring must be easy lah kan ?

deym.

aku masih blum nampak the light.
the truth.
nasib aku dah dilahirkan beragama.
klao tak pasti terpinga2 cari kebenaran agama.
sepertimana org mencari kebenaran politik.

owh. ada yg benarkah dlm politik ?
aku tak rasa mcm tu.
mana2 pon.

bukan sng handle satu kerajaan.
cuba kao pi handle satu company dulu tgk camna
boleh kah kao jujur sejujurnya
boleh kah kao tak pkai strategi utk maju
cuma pkai kebenarannn
tunjuk kebenarannn

seburuk mana production kao,
seburuk itu jgak kao iklankan
tak buat gempak2 dah
sebab tak baik menipu....

adakah ?

stressed out .

2012-01-09T19:06:00.000+08:00

today i'm alllll stressed ouutttttt..........!!!!!!!!!
i am 24
not 14

twenty fouurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

why lah i have to live this dull life
why lah i cant see any escape
until when lah do i have to accept this

until im an old granny with no teeth ?

i wont be free until im married .
im pretty sure i wont be free after i got married either .

deymm.

twisted .

2012-01-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

i hope when you come ,
you'd push me to believe .
i hope when you leave ,
you'd pull down my pains and enemies .

so i won't be destructed
when i'm alone
how come our time is wasted
when we are home ?

i hope when you love ,
you'd hate the joy and desires .
so baby when you hate ,
you'd love me more than others .

Butterfingers : Pretty Rain (HQ Audio)

2012-01-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

the list # 4 .

2012-01-08T14:27:00.001+08:00

i used to write you poems .
there was once you said you want to write me a poem too .

then here's what you gave me .

bengongs :

"weirdo ?
she always call me weirdo .
i think i'm normal .
but nevermind,
whatever she says, i'm not angry
cause im calling her bengongs.

now i take her as a girlfriend for me
i thought she'd be angry
but i was always wrong
she likes me too
wuuwuu i'm happy

when we walk, i'll always be with her
if i could, i want to hug her while walking and always hold her hand

she's always angry when i call her tua's
and she said i'm naughty
no..i'm a good man

anyway, now i love her
i don't want to see her cry
if i'm wrong, i want her to forgive me..

love you bengongs
you're my bengongs
and i'm not a sweet talker. "

haish.
so cute lah you
i looveeee it.
when are you going to write me some more weirdo ?

win together or lose each other .

2012-01-08T13:17:00.000+08:00

it came to my mind as we fought about it .
about my flaws .

yeah in a relationship there must be things you dislikes . things that appear to be unattractive to you, regarding your partner .

but most people handle them in a wrong way .

you may have heard things like ..
" what are you wearing ? it's ugly "
" you are too skinny . that's not hot at all "
etc..

now tell me how did you feel afterwards ?

bad . pathetic . clueless of what to do . and worse it adds up your INSECURITIES .
you end up feeling sorry for yourself for failing to be what your partner expected you to be .

WHAT A PARTNER SHOULD DO is actually , give ideas and guides !

instead of telling how ugly his/her outfits are...say something like

" check out this outfit . they look superb on you "

EASY .

masih .

2012-01-06T01:37:00.001+08:00

I don’t know lah why.

But aku rasa laen. Dgn kao. Cause kita ni mcm ditemukan. Haish. Camna aku nak ckp ni.

See we are from very different background. Different world .

Kita knal tanpa mencari. Fate brought us to a place. Through some people. Then we got closer .

And we made mistakes along the way. Lots of mistake. You did. I did.

And have u ever wondered why are we still here ? still together ?

What is it that make us stay ?

We stay even when there were perfect reasons and excuses to leave ?

Because of look ? nah… berlambak awek2 and guys hot2 di luar sana .

Money ? nah.. we don’t have money.

Career? Nah.. we are not in the same path .

Music ? ok.. we have some in common.. but actually taste kita laen jgak .

Style ? nah.. u hate mine.

Characteristic ? aku ska jalan2. Kao ska pompuan duk rumah. Aku ska dibawak have fun jalan2. Kao tak suka. Katanya..pompuan suka berjalan2 ni mcm pelacur. Wth.

There are lots of thing I disagree with you.

Same goes to you.

So whyyyy on earthhhhh are we still together ?

Sayang ?

Centa ?

Kaseh ?

Takdir ?

Jodoh ?

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Official Music Video)

2011-12-28T10:31:00.000+08:00

i've passed few lonely nights.
it's okay.
i wait.
for a thousand more.

[HD] Radiohead - Paranoid Android (Live @ Saitama Super Arena - Oct 5, 0...

2011-12-27T17:04:00.001+08:00

Lamb of God - Laid to Rest [HD/Lyrics]

2011-12-26T00:11:00.003+08:00

hani . it's our song .
the song we kept on repeating in my car .
you're the best partner lah ! cause with u i can play my songs loudly .
kesian deela terpaksa dengar jgak .

and we go jalan2 to merata2 .

and we talked and sang and listened and talked and stopped lepak and stopped kat port depan tman kedai kopi . and snapped photos. and talked again . and went back to sleep .

if we were not of the same gender , sudah pastilah kita bercenta kan ?
haha. that's what we always said.

ya lah.
ta pnah plak aku dpt bf yg nak ikot aku driving ke mana2 sahaja bila2 masa sahaja tanpa tujuan, hanya dengan berborak2 dan mendengar lagu .

dengan kao sajalah.

the time spent with u were really precious .
so exciting .

if only we could do that again .
unfortunately, now that i have my angry bird, and u also have your panda,
terpaksaaalaaahhhh jadi pompuan melayu terakhir.

duk diam syak lah.

haish..........................................
if only mr angry bird could give me sedikit kebebasan bersamamu.

pastilah saya perempuan yg tersangat bahagia di alaf ini .

relax .

2011-12-25T15:51:00.003+08:00

mr angry bird is going out with his friends.
ke kl.
and cam biasa.
aku glabah lagi.

why the hell am i so scared ?
enough adya.
trust him.

haish
*jgn lah buat yg bukan2 !

tank and chois .

bff ,

2011-12-25T13:52:00.001+08:00

hani !
do you remember kita pi tdo kat tgh2 ke busy an BB ?
kat cardogan hotel .

that day we both naik public transport and met kat BB.
*time ni aku blum ada keta kot.ke mls bwk keta.aku pon ta igt*

then kita check in kat hotel tu.
murah ja.
rsnya satu mlm 150 je kot.

siang tu kita jalan2 dgn paeh.
dia dtg bb jgak.
pastu kita pi salon.
i cut my hair short.and kaler skali.
kao plak buat highlight kan.
time tu rambut kao panjang amat.

and mlm tu my ex bf dtg dgn bff dia.
bwk kita lepak pelita.
*risao agknya kita berdua je pompuan mlm2.

and time kat bilik mlm tu.
kao plak bergaduh dgn ex bf kao on the fon.
lol.

rindu lah lepak dgn kao.
tp skang konfem da tak bley buat cam tu.
nanty mr angry bird bertammmmbaahhh tammbaaahhh angry lagi .

the list # 3 .

2011-12-25T13:39:00.000+08:00

masa ni pon blom kapel lagi .
i remember that night we were lepaking at bb .
then fifi texted me ,he said he saw my car .
he was going to meet ema hashim at cloth & clef so he invited us to come along .
so we went there .
we sat at a corner , watching a mat salleh singing.
the best part was when he came towards us and sang right in front both of us .
* perhaps he could see the bunga2 centa eh ? *
and i remember the smile on your face .
it made me happy though .
it made me feel good to be able to put a smile on your face .
that was a great night .
thanks to fifi . =]

mr angry bird .

2011-12-24T23:04:00.001+08:00

sbenarnya .
aku .
rindu .
kao .
sangat .

the list # 2 .

2011-12-22T18:47:00.000+08:00

your first birthday . let's recall few days before the proposal .
5th february 2010 .

i planned to surprise u.
thanks to nawwar, ain, and chois for helping me out.

on your birthday's eve nawwar ain n i went out to buy your birthday cake written 'slamat tua c bengong.<3 u.' *tak malu sungguh.but as a fren la kan*

after that all the three of us were busy practicing for archifest .
practice menari,shoot movie, until 5am.
we were all very exhausted. but we've already bought the cake so i texted chois.

'camna ni da lewat.masi bley sambut ka?'
he said dtg ja.nt dia kjot tank.

so sy,ain n nawar gerak lah ke klang.
otw tu, i remember u texted me..tanya bwatpa smua...
n ckp kamu bgn dr tdur...coz chois ajak kamu minum. lol.

sampai klang,we picked up chois n headed to ur home.
there u were,mencangkung bwh ruma,looking confused while u were looking at my car.

chois turun dulu.ain n nawar kelam kabut tlg nyalakan lilin.
then i brought the cake n we sang u a birthday song.

then we lepak mamak before we went home.
ms tu saya ain n nawar da srabai n kepnatan n mngantuk coz bz smpai pagi2 buta.

it was simple but im so glad i made it for my special sabahan friend.
=]

the list # 1 .

2011-12-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

well i guess i've to start listing down things we've done,so that they won't be forgotten . btw,thanks for being a part of me. =]

1. i remember the proposal. the day u asked me to be ur gf. i was sending u home then u held my hand and asked something like ' kita couple ?' *dont really remember* then i paused . i was so confused and nervous. i'm afraid u were just fooling around . i was speechless even after u repeated the question for a few more times.

until peronda dtg cause they thought we were selling stuffs i guess. so we both went home...texting...and i accepted. but i was still in doubt so the next morning i asked u again 'btol ka kita couple ni' then u said it's true. so that was the beginning of our story.. 9th february 2010.

thanks a lot !

2011-12-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

there were soo many things you've done that i didn't understand ,
that made me angry, confused and doubtful .

but you just kept on doing them.

and now i realized, you did all that because you really care about me.

haish. it took me two years to understand ?
no wonder u call me bengong.

wth .

2011-12-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

what a fishy night .

first plan nak online.skype.

then u called.

ckp ta jd.coz chois tdo sana.dia tgh online.

then you said u nak tdo .

then i asked u to just leave the fon online.

as usual.

cause we always sleep together.bia je fon camtu.

and u refused.

ckp kan chois ada sana.

which is weird .

cause chois pon tgh online jgak kan.

bukannya mngganggu pon.

then i was so angry i ended the call .

then i chatted with chois.

then he said something like.

'nt km dpt kwn baru jgak tu sbr2lah'

wth !

u always told me nak carikan saya 'kawan baru'

which u said it as a joke.

but then when chois pon started to say the same thing, IT IS NOT FUNNY ANYMORE ! NOT AT ALL !.

and then,suddenly,chois offline.

wth.

kata dia nak pkai nak online.

what is going on actually ?

what r u guys up to ?

or am i the one thinking too much ?

damn it.

opps.ok.

he called me just now. saying he's watching football.

ok i feel better.

A BIT.

-_-"

pompuan .

2011-12-17T13:00:00.002+08:00

argh.
mmg aku ska pompuan cantek .
tp utk aku je la .
bukan utk bf ku .

pantang sungguh !
dont ever tell me how hot that other woman is,
don't let me know you're adding pretty woman ,
don't let me know you're busy chatting with other woman !

DON'T !

it makes me want to kill you so badly . !

c garang .

2011-12-16T10:40:00.002+08:00

sayang .
knapa yg kamu garang2 ni .
ta best btol .

me . you . dead .

2011-12-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

i hate it when you have no time for me .

it's a bad day .
it's sad that it seems like you don't even care .

and don't even notice i am staying up late actually to talk to you .
to feel closer to you .

so why are you still not calling me .

what can i do ?

2011-12-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

ya...i can't always get what i want .

office mates are currently excited discussing on which place to go for office trip .
i am not at all .
cause i am not allowed to go .
not even talk about it anymore .
or else he said, he's gonna find another girl 'yg dgr ckp'

haish.
what can i do ?

i am a bit disappointed actually .
it's pathetic .

i've only been to singapore so far .
i've never get on a plane .

i am not born in a wealthy family though .
office trip is such a great opportunity .

but he refuses to let me go .
what can i do ?

if only he would change his mind...
hurm.

The Strokes - Reptilia

2011-12-11T14:16:00.000+08:00

Kings Of Leon - Molly's Chambers

2011-12-11T13:49:00.000+08:00

gerhana .

2011-12-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

today is a bad day .
hari gerhana utk aku .
haish .

mula2 tade mood .
cause this is the 1st weekend without him near .
and then he's going to rtw . which i know she will be there too .
tambah lagi tade mood .

so i decided to keluar dgn tyka . utk menghappykan diri .
so da siap2 dah .
kereta ta bley stat plak .
da ketok2 bateri tu .
ta bley jgak .
tambah lagi tade mood .

so mak anta ktrg pi megamall .
pi sana da pkul 530pm.
hujan plak tu .
well i hate rainy days .
seriously .
tambah lagi teda mood.

so pi karaoke kat apple k.
order air choc dia suh pilih kat screen.
kat screen tu ada choc,cappucino,n mocha.gamba tu ada whip cream
so ktrg ckplah nak choc 1.
dia tanya hot ke cold?
so ktrg ckp lah cold.
pastu aku tanyalah.ada whip cream kan? cam dlm gamba?
dia ckp.haah.pilih je lah dlm gmba tu.

so ok fine.
pastu masuk bilik.then dia anta ice choc.
without cream.
so aku ckp lah.td mintak whip cream.

pastu akak tu pi panggil akak counter td.
akak kaunter tu pi ckp plak.
akak kaunter:'td u ckp nak choc cold.so choc cold mmg tade whip cream.ice blended ja ada'
aku:'mmglah.td u tanya nak hot ke cold.of course lah ktrg jwp cold.'
akak:'yalah.patotnya u ckp nak ice blended'
aku:'ktrg manalah tao.dah kat gamba tu pon smua gamba ada whip cream ja.tade pon ckp blended ke hot ke cold ke.takpalah bia ja lah air tu'
akak kaunter dgn muka masamnya blah.

aku tade niat pon na mara.mungkin coz tade mood pon.aku tak sedar plak aku marah.tiba2 akak tu muka masam.
aku tanya ah tyka.'kak long marah dia ke td?'
tyka ckp 'haah'

sorrylah ye akak.

owh ya.balik rumah pi ruma bakal isteri pacik aku plak.pi masuk meminang.
pastu hujan lebat plak skang ni.
terlepas tgk gerhana.
so sad.

haish.
i hope tomorrow is a good day.please.

jealousy again .

2011-12-10T15:19:00.002+08:00

i know she's going too .
and i remember what happened between u two before .

please don't let it happen again .
or else .
us is over .

my sweetie owl .

2011-12-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

i like owls .
lama suda .
they are unique, mysterious .
they are really something .

and now kluar plak blog mengecam owls ni .
saying it's freemason blabla..

ok first thing .
i don't think we should reject a God's creation just because some other beliefs is using them as a symbol .
they are still makhluk ciptaan Nya yg tak berdosa .
contohnya .
hindu memuliakan lembu .
takde plak org nak kecam lembu kan ?

burung hantu tu comel kot.
tade muka penjahat pon.
klao dia ada prasaan mesti dia da menangis2 skang ni .
mungkin jgak dia da pi makan pihak2 yg pi puja2 dia tu .

ok second .
ok i agree.
ive heard jugak pasal kita ta bley simpan ka,pakai ka, barang2 yg menyerupai manusia atao apa2 yg bernyawa .

ini satu persoalan .
biasalah .saya manusia biasa. jahil.
jadi i wonder .
tahap mana yg dikatakan menyerupai ?
adakah hanya jika ia benar2 cukup sifat ?
atao pun ia juga haram jika ia mempunyai bentuk yang sekali pandang dah tao dia ni presenting what animal walaupun ta cukup sifat ?

contohnya lah .
pakai barang berbentuk orang lidi .
dia ta cukup sifat.
tapi kita tao bentuk tu presenting orang.
is it haram too ?

lagi satu .
dikatakan berdosa utk melukis gambar2 binatang,manusia.
ok.di zaman moden ni.
kita snap photo lagi.
and frame kan besar2 kat rumah.
lagi cukup sifat.
sebiji tu.
so haram tak ?

do you get what i mean ?

rock the world .

2011-12-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

so he's going to rtw tomorrow .
im a bit reluctant to let him go .
but well i can't stop him from going anyway .

all i can do is pray to Allah S.W.T supaya dia dijauhkan dari godaan syaitaaannnn
dan perempuan2....

owh ya .
aku na pegi tak kasi plak .

katanya : 'kamu tu lembut . tak sesuai .'
pergh . bapak tiri btol kamu ni .

busy me .

2011-12-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

saya harus mem busy kan diri .
supaya saya tak asek rindu kamu trus .

don't be clingy la adya .
let him live his life .
let him be with his friends .

he sure will come back to you .

ok lah .
i wait .

bad boys .

2011-12-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

okayh .
bad boys may sound so much fun .
but not . when all that he knows is just having fun .

a wise man is sexier .
a guy with good manner , responsible ,
matured , is such a blessing .

tired of watching bad boys . even more when they are proud of it .
so immature . i guess that's why we call em boys.

drama . drama .

2011-12-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

it's really good that nowadays most tv series ada nilai2 islam .
cause u know tv ni pengaruh besar lagi2 kat budak2 .

it's good to see lot of celebs and tv hosts pakai tudung .
cantik2 smua .

i can't describe how i feel .
but it feels really good .

*though i'm nowhere near that 'goodness'

i'm proud of all you women yg berpakaian dan berperangai sopan2.
smoga sentiasa begitu dan menjadi contoh yg baik .
=]

rindu .

2011-12-08T20:13:00.001+08:00

sayang
saya
masih
rindu
kamu
sangat .
bye .

weekend is dead .

2011-12-06T18:42:00.002+08:00

it's only been a day since he's back to klang .
i'm already toooo bored .
bored because i know nothing special is going to happen on coming weekend anymore .

nothing good is going to happen .
working,eat,sleep,work,eat,sleep,........
owh my....

that's not good .
i need you near .

long distance .

2011-12-05T19:39:00.004+08:00

sayangku suda pergi...
suda pulang ke klang..
not working here in kuantan anymore...

sayangku saket...
demam berhari2..
ta sembuh2.

nasib baik sempat jumpa dkat terminal tadi..
sedih tgk kamu..
panas sungguh..terketar2 ni.
huhu.

kita pernah je berjauhan sebelum ni..
tp tataolah knapa sayang..
kali ni mcm sedih plak ni..

i did cry kat terminal td.
tp kaver2 la.tamao dinampak ni.
saya kan 'tough'

it was really hard to say good bye.
but that is the best for you.
sini hujan. nanti makin truk plak sakit kamu.

i cried kat office jgak.
wuwu. because i know i'm soooo gonna miss you lah sayangku .
nda tao laa bila lagi bley jumpa ni .

macam2 dah things we've been through kan .
dari saya belajar..sampai saya kerja .

it's almost two years already.

'sy syg kamu sgt taw' -tank
saya sayang kamu sangat juga sayang.

=]

necklace .

2011-12-05T00:52:00.002+08:00

i bought a pair of lockets for both me and tank .

they are both translucent green with slightly different shape.

in the middle of the locket, there is a hole stuffed with a rice *the raw one* with both our names written on it.

it was then filled with water and some glitters .

it is such a brilliant innovation .

i don't have a nice camera to capture it though. too bad.

i got them for only rm10 each from a kiosk in ECM.

the story .

2011-12-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

sayang .
i can't stop myself from falling for you .

no matter how bad we've been .
no matter how annoyed i get .
i can't get over you .

we haven't been apart for few months .
i'm kinda scared when you told me you only gonna be here until end of this month .
i'm scared .
what if the distance turns out to be bad ?

i'm scared to know the end of our story .
i don't want to be RADIT N JANI .
no way .
not even ROMEO N JULIET .
this is TAPAK N TANK .
it has got to be the best .

Dire Straits-Romeo and Juliet [LYRICS!]

2011-12-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you
I Can't do anything except be in love with you.

the lyric says all.

sick boyfriend .

2011-12-04T01:18:00.000+08:00

sayang is sick .

for three days already .

get well soon sayang .

haiyaaaa.........

c bengong ni.

docs .

2011-12-04T00:47:00.002+08:00

just bought a pair of pre owned oxblood DM for RM3++.
habis suda duit gajiku.
thanks to sayangku coz sudi memberi pinjaman sementara dapat next gaji.
hehe.bukan selalu kan sayang.lalala.
UK5, Made In England .
haven't got them yet.
don't know when will i receive them.
waiting...waiting...

they look quite like these :

owh ya sayang.

these oxblood red wing boots cam match plak ni.

get one lah.hehe.

well i'm also interested in floral docs.

but syang ckp MENGARUT.

tp takpala.interested pon tak mampu.

mahal sungguh.

tgk syak la.

pning.

2011-11-20T21:31:00.002+08:00

kpala aku pning gila dari smalam.
klao da kawen mmg aku paksa suami ku pluk ku seharian.
kiss2 kpala kasi baek.

berangan.

so im not married.
peluk2 bantal ja la.

haish.too bad.

Nirvana - Aneurysm (Live)

2011-11-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

Dire Straits - Sultans Of Swing (Alchemy Live)

2011-11-20T14:08:00.000+08:00